khone se darti hun mai

"badal pe chalti hun mai..

ghirti sambhalti hun mai..

khwashiyen krti hun mai...

khone se darti hun mai.."

My friend once told me, "you have a habit of thinking & introspecting a lot" … well I guess there’s no harm in exploring, reasoning & examining ones own thoughts & feelings & according to me relationships are certainly one of the most complex things one has to deal with… & dealing with friendships is surely one of them… though I am really lucky to have some of the superb people around me, who’ve accepted me the way I am , have always been there when I needed them & most notably have tolerated my doldrums and rigorous mood swings…

Inspite of this I still feel insecure & find it difficult to deal with certain things at times…

The kind of person I am, I have always had very few close friends. Yes, I admit I am very reluctant to make new friends easily... & I think trust has a lot to do with that. I cannot trust people easily but the ones I gel along with nicely should consider themselves really lucky ‘coz I’ll always bat for them no matter what… I know I don’t express it too often, but I love you all my buddies & can’t imagine a life without any one of you. You all mean my world to me…I guess when you are so closely attached to someone; you would obviously want those feelings to be reciprocated in ditto & that’s where it all starts… expectations always hurt… this surely doesn’t mean I question their friendship but, I think it’s my obsession or my over protective & possessive nature that lands me into trouble most of the times. i fear losing them & I tend to get anxious about so many things that it actually makes me uncomfortable & starts troubling me & forces me to think if it is wrong to associate so intimately with your friends that if sometimes they aren’t there you start feeling apprehensive, concerned & even disturbed at times… and the worst part is that in spite of knowing that it’ll spoil & ruin the relationship you still can’t get over it.

I read it somewhere that “getting over attached to anything would lead to sadness, unhappiness and misery”… I don’t know if it stands true or not but have been a victim of this many a times… & believe me it feels like hell…

this question often haunts my mind,”‘ Is being over protective & possessive really so bad?" Well... I don’t think so… as far as I believe, being possessive for our friend’s just means that we love them so enormously & it is unquestionably not bad to care for someone so immensely…is it ?

But yes, if not controlled it may worsen the matters sometimes… (Actually many times in my case)

Someone has rightly said, “Friendship is like water contained in our hand, As long as you keep your hand gently open, it will always be there. However, if you attempt to close your fingers round it and try to posses it, it will spill through the first cracks it finds.

For someone like me, to practice this is like a mission…

Here I am also reminded of the famous saying of Richard Bach, “if you love someone set it free, if it comes back it is yours, if not, it never was…”

I guess the only solution to this hitch is to simply accept things as they are & move on… but its not so easy to move on… what disturbs me max is even if I want to, I can’t avoid these extreme feelings from entering my brain… but i know, with such wonderful friends around, I’ll surely get over it one day…

If anyone of you has a better solution to my problem, you are most welcome… will be waiting for your replies…

p.s : take love & multiply it by infinity,

then take it to the depths of forever & still then only can you see a glimpse of how much i love my friends... :)

“Tu hai toh I’ll be alright”

"Tu hai toh tedhi medhi rahen

Ulti pulti baatein

Sedhi lagti hai,

Tu hai toh joothe moothe vaade

Dushman ke irrade

Sache lagte hai,

Jo dil mein taare vaare de jagah

Woh tu hi hai, tu hi hai

Jo rote rote de hasa

Tu hi hai wahin,

Jaane kyun, dil janta hai

Tu hai toh, I’ll be alright…”

Dedicated to my “greatest buddy” ever, for the person whom I can call my soul-mate, the person with whom I can share my secrets, my happiness… just about everything…… What better than sharing my name with her !!!!

Lots to write about her but where do I start from???

She’s the most fantastic friend I’ve ever had...She’s got the most magnificent smile I’ve ever seen, and she is the gentlest & the most grounded person I’ve ever met... Whatever I say about her is surely not enough. All I can say is her kindness & warmth touches my heart like nothing else does, her serene smile mesmerizes me & her caring & giving nature teaches me that ‘there is greatness in giving’. …!! I even envy her for so many things…one of them being her patience; I wish I was even 10% of as patient as she is… :) !!! She is undoubtedly the most generous person I’ve seen , though I keep telling her at times ‘learn to say NO’ & which I am sure she will one day… but jokes apart, I still love her the way she is.. :)

Dear, I care about you more than any words I've told to you, you just don't know it yet… so here I am, with the least I could do to show you what you mean to me. When I first met you in college we were strangers but the moment we talked for the first time, something within me clicked and I knew our friendship was here to stay… Just a year & a half since we’ve known each other but it seems like we’ve been together for ages… Each day spent with you is better than the last.

You are a Gem of a friend sweetheart. Knowing you as a person has been great but having you as a friend is a blessing…You are like an inspiration for me when I’ve lost all my hope. Someone I can count on whenever I am low. You are in short ‘my supporting pillar’… Boring classes in college are fun ‘coz I have you with me… The full on masti, the celebrations, the ‘photo sessions’ & all sorts of enjoyment we have in the college- everything is just superb because of you. I am proud to have you in my life.

They say, “A true friend is that one person who makes you laugh when you think you can't smile anymore...” & believe me dear you are one such friend for me... :)

Akriti, I wonder if you know how special you are, how precious you are, and how lucky I am to have you in my life. I promise to you honey that,

“We’ll be friends as long as the stars twinkle in the sky, as long as angels are there up high… till oceans run dry & till the day I die… :) :)

Happy B’day darling…

Have a wonderful b’day & a gr8 life ahead…!!!

P.s- luv u honey

Always there…

:) :) :)

Dadagiri unlimited…!!

Cricket has always been a religion in India & it is no different for me. Sourav Chandidas Ganguly or ‘dada’ (as he is sweetly called by his fans around the globe) is someone whom I truly idolize & admire. He has probably been my biggest source of inspiration. I am actually crazy about him.

“Dada” is & will always remain one of the greatest players of the cricketing fraternity. Titles like:

· “The Prince of Kolkata”- Geoffrey Boycott

· “On the off-side, first there is god and then there is Sourav Ganguly…” – Rahul Dravid

· “The Bengal tiger” …

Have been lovingly bestowed on him…

From the little ‘Maharaj’ born with a golden spoon in a royal Bengali family to becoming the most successful captain of the Indian cricket team in both forms of the game, dada’s journey has indeed been remarkable. Football was his first love & he took cricket seriously only after he was in his 10^th grade.Dada started his ODI career in 1992 against West Indies but was dropped ‘coz of his poor show & was perceived to be arrogant in his game. It was only after him scoring heavily in the domestic cricket for the next two years that he was picked for the England tour in the year 1996 where he surprised everyone with his performance by smashing a century in his debut test at Lord’s… a feat that not much have achieved in the cricketing history. Aggression has always been his asset. With an elegant style probably matchless on the off-side & a murderer against spin dada has been one of the best players the game has seen.

He took over as the Indian captain in the year 2000, when cricket was trapped in the match-fixing quagmire. Fans had almost lost their faith & the biggest stars their sheen. It was said that the worst job in the country at that time was to captain Team India. But unaffected by all these dada took the challenge with full confidence & yet again proved his critics wrong. History will surely remember him for saving the Indian cricket from its deepest low: the shackles of match-fixing. His biggest contribution to Team India has been the winning attitude. It was under him that the team started winning more matches on the foreign soil. He backed and motivated players like Virender Sehwag, Yuvraj Singh, Harbhajan Singh, Zaheer Khan who went on to contribute significantly in several Indian wins.

Dada always believed in youngsters and taught them how to get together & fight as one unit. He painstakingly backed the raw talent & infused a sense of passion and confidence in them. His methods & madness made him the most colorful skipper. His leadership skills are just phenomenal … something out of the ordinary. The best thing I like about him is his fearless, never say die, aggressive attitude… its something that’s incomparable... There are many historic moments for which he will always be remembered, the biggest being leading team India to the finals of the 2003 World Cup & his much famous shirt-doffing act at Lord’s after India’s victory in the Nat-West series against England in the year 2002…:)

Ups & downs are a part of life & dada’s journey was no different. He was unquestionably one of the most controversial players of the game. It was even said that controversies seem to be his middle name. As a captain he often drove the selectors crazy. Dada has faced hordes of criticism but he never let it bother him. He took it all with a smile on his face & always used to say “you just need to do your work, Let the results take care of themselves”. Nobody other than him probably knows how to answer his critics better. He had to go through a lot of problems in his career: the short-pitch ball nightmares, selection issues, struggle for runs (in later part of his career) & lastly the final face-off with Greg Chappell which was the ugliest chapter in his career. Yet he sat through all this silently.

Talking about his marriage to Dona Ganguly, when parents from both sides kept opposing their relation, secret marriage was his only solution… :) The man definitely knows how to get things done his way, be it cricket or his personal life… :) and that’s something that makes me go fida over him…:)

Can actually go on & on about dada but will fall short of characters. So to sum it all, here are some of my favorite Quotes by dada-

· “There’s no point in playing well & losing”

· “I don’t believe in draws, either you win or you lose”

· “If your job is totally free of problems that’s no job”… :)

On your 38^th birthday here’s wishing you a great year ahead.

Happy birthday dada…!!! :) :) :)

THE FACEBOOK GENERATION

These days when we make new friends the first thing we ask "Are you on Facebook, orkut, twitter…etc?" That’s what we call the generation of social networking… Words such as tweeting, blogging, scrapping ---which wouldn't have made any sense to anybody a few years back, are being used with such spontaneity today… Well…thats the impact social networking has created on our lives..Right from the way we talk, the way we interact or the way we think… it has taken a toll on everything…

Social networking has revolutionized the way people, esp. students communicate & interact with each other… & a huge credit for this goes 2 “Facebook” , the biggest social networking site which was created by three college students in the year 2004.

Facebook or Fb (as it is commonly called) has become an integral part of most of our lives…& has caught with the young & old around the globe…

Facebook has had a tremendous impact on today's “technologically advanced society”… The best part about it is that it allows people, who probably never would have met each other in person, to communicate with each other, create new relations and friendships & reconnect with the old 1’s... It is a different world altogether… & the most amazing thing is that sites like facebook, twitter…etc. provide a platform for the individuals to express their views n ideas & in true sense give them the freedom of choice and expression... Actually there is something for everyone to share… All this is just a click away..!!!

Positives apart there is something we need to worry about & thats the element of “addiction” consciously or unconsciously we are all indeed getting drawn into it … some experts have estimated that most of the people now spend AT LEAST 50 % of their waking time online.. Facts like these have prompted a lot of companies to block access to all the social networking websites in the office premises….

Addiction to such websites has led to several alarming consequences…. A lot of time we hear people specially college goers saying “How can we imagine a life without facebook !! ” This itself says it all… The network is no longer limited to people we know. It extends beyond boundaries of nations and to people we haven’t even met before.. This has led to several security issues leading to Facebook being banned in some countries. Although Facebook has taken several steps to prevent occurrence of such issues but still we cannot rely much on it…Personal content on net is not “Safe” yet…

But all said and done, I think such websites have a lot more to offer than we can actually imagine… They have become an indispensable part of our life today…Whether we like it or not….

And as they say- “like it or hate it u sure can’t ignore it “…!! :)

& to be honest even I can’t live without it… :)